Earlier this week, we caught up with Laney. Now let’s have a sit-down with Benny, the saucy intern who seems to have a thing for Mads. She’s been pretty forthright about her interest in him. Let’s see what she has to say for herself. 


Me: So tell it to me straight, Benny. Why did you start making moves on Mads? You knew he was married–

Benny: (laughs) You’ve seen him. You know how gorgeous he is. And I liked what I saw, so I went for it.

Me: It can’t be so shallow as that.

Benny: Look, I don’t know what you expect me to say. I’m not really into relationships. I suppose I’m like a guy in that way… I like to hit it and quit it. I know it sounds vulgar, but I don’t have any hang-ups when it comes to sex. If I want it, I want it. And Mads…well, he’s insanely hot.

Me: But is that a reason to go after a man you know is married?

Benny: You know what I wanted? I just wanted to see if I could do it. Turn his head. Get him interested. See where it went. I knew it was a long shot. And, no, I was not interested in being the next Mrs. Rasmussen or being the mother of his children. I just wanted a taste of him.

Me: You’ve been interning at the collective. How did you end up there?

Brazilian Cinita Dicker, inspiration for Benny.
Brazilian Cinita Dicker, inspiration for Benny.

Benny: I heard about it through the grapevine. Morten and Mads came to my design seminar at Designhøjskole and I really liked how mellow they were. They didn’t act like they were too good to be there, they didn’t blather on like they were saying oh-so-very important words that didn’t really mean anything. They seemed real, you know? And I had total respect for that. I’m a designer too. I wanted to be a part of this–work together with some guys who seemed really cool and whose work was well and truly kick-ass. And then I heard Willem talking about how he’d applied, but I’d missed the application deadline. So I just went there and pretended I’d applied. Mads wasn’t there that day. It was Jonas and Morten who ended up interviewing me. I guess they liked my portfolio.

Me: What are you plans now? Are you going to continue trying to get Mads?

Benny: (shrugging) If he shows an interest, then why should I turn him down?

Me: And has he shown an interest?

Benny: Not yet…but it’s only a matter of time. And his wife isn’t around, so I’m guessing he might be more interested now.

Me: What about your position at the collective? Shouldn’t you be more focused on your career and getting work experience?

Benny: I know I’m good already. I’m the best intern there. And I do a damned good job, so nobody can complain. I go in, I work…I finish my projects on time. Yes, I flirt. I think any woman in my position would do the same.

Me: Where do you see yourself five years from now?

Benny (laughs again): I don’t know…but wherever I am, I’ll be enjoying myself. Maybe I’ll have my own collective. Maybe they’ll take me on full-time. I guess we’ll just to wait and see.


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So last week we had a chance to catch up with Mads. This week let’s sit down with Laney. We’ve caught up with her on a rare moment when the kids are napping and her aunt’s house in Juno Beach is quiet. We’re in her aunt’s garden, sitting in the shade of the marbleberry tree and sipping iced tea. What’s going on in Laney’s head…? Let’s find out.


Me: I think the question on everyone’s mind is if this is the end of the road for you and Mads.

Laney: I don’t know. I don’t want it to be…but things between us aren’t the way they were. And I need more from him. I don’t want a part-time husband.

Me: How are the girls taking the separation?

Actress Kerry Washington, inspiration for Laney in the Maybe... series.
Actress Kerry Washington, inspiration for Laney in the Maybe… series.

Laney: They don’t really understand it. Freya’s too young–she’s only seven months old, so for her this is more of a Where’s Papa? thing. I can tell she misses him. She’s always looking for him. And for Liv…she’s confused. I can’t really tell my four-year-old daughter that I’ve left her father. That I’ve done it because I need a break from what our life was becoming. All she knows is that her daddy isn’t here… she asks about him every day–when is he coming, does he miss her, will she see him soon? I make sure she has FaceTime chats with him…it’s not the same as seeing him every day but at least they can see each other and talk.

Me: Are you talking to him as well?

Laney: (pausing) Sometimes. It’s not easy. Seeing him, being reminded every time I look at him that maybe this is karma for how we even met and the hurt we caused. And then… I see him and my resolve to be away from him slips. I love him. I guess I love him too much. Maybe that’s my problem.

Me: You’ve had a case of the Baby Blues…do you feel like being away is helping you get back to the old you?

Laney: I really hate that term, “Baby Blues”. It makes it sound so cutesy. I feel better…I’m beginning to feel normal again. My aunt Cecily has been a huge help. I needed support, I needed someone to help me focus and find my footing again and she’s done that. It’s the second time she saved me. The first time was when my mom died… Cecily didn’t have to take me in. She could have left me in foster care. But that’s not the sort of person she is. And even now, she could have said no when I asked if we could come. She tried to talk me out of leaving Denmark with the kids. But she also understood I needed to be away.

Me: You didn’t initially want to try the yoga and meditation she suggested. What made you change your mind?

Laney: I couldn’t really see how it was going to help me… I didn’t understand how it could make me feel any differently. But then I went, and it was all about focusing on you and your baby and forming this connection. When everything is calm, when you can feel all the tension ebbing away and you realize how much you love your child, how you’ve been in this fog because of anxiety and lack of sleep and everything else. And suddenly you see your little one in a different light, one that isn’t dimmed by all the confusion, and it’s such a relief. I’m so glad Cecily talked me into trying it. It helped me find my way again.

Me: Do you have any regrets about leaving the way that you did?

Laney: I should have told him I was going to leave. I knew it even as I was booking the tickets while he slept. I knew this was going to break his heart. But my heart already felt broken. I felt like I’d already lost him.

Me: He says he doesn’t want this to be the end of you. What would it take for the two of you to come back together again?

Laney: I need more than words. I need proof. As much as I love him, I need to see that things will really change. That’s the hard part though…because if he suddenly showed up and said all the right words, I’d melt. I always melt for him. I can’t help it. There’s no one else in this world I want. For me, there’s only Mads.


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MFThe last time we interviewed Mads, he was waiting for Laney to figure out if she was going to take the plunge–give up the comfortable though sterile life she had with Niklas in Stockholm for Mads. Now it’s four years later. They’re married, and they’ve got two beautiful daughters. But all is not well. So let’s imagine it’s one of those hot, humid summer days in Copenhagen and we’ve caught up with Mads at Mikkeller and Friends on Stefansgade. And we’re sitting outside since it’s too sticky to be indoors. Mads doesn’t seem like he’s in the best of moods. Let’s see what he’s got to say… 


Me: Let’s just jump right into this…what the heck did you do to make her leave?

Mads: (clasps his hands, leans forward and stares down at his feet) I screwed up. I was stupid… I just… I thought I was doing the right thing. I thought if I could be more successful, if I could give her everything–the money, the lifestyle she used to have…that we’d never have to worry. And… I wanted to be successful for me too. I didn’t want to feel like I was some kind of failure.

Me: But how could you feel like a failure when things seem to be going so well for you and your partners? You’re making bespoke pieces for a major hotel project, you’ve got a steady flow of orders coming in and write-ups in design magazines. Surely by now you know you’ve made it.

Mads: I don’t know. You know… sometimes when you’re looking at the stacks of invoices that need to be paid and you’re having to remind pretty flush customers that they really do need to pay for the furniture you’ve designed for them, and you’re paying rent on workspace and making sure everyone else gets paid first…you don’t really feel that successful. We had some pretty lean years in the beginning.

Me: But surely you know Laney doesn’t miss her life with Niklas…

Danish actor Nikolaj Coster-Waldau, the inspiration for Mads.
Danish actor Nikolaj Coster-Waldau, the inspiration for Mads.

Mads: I know she doesn’t want to be with Niklas again. Realistically, I know this. But when I’m standing there watching this distance grow between us…and I know he’s calling her sometimes, asking for advice and acting like the only thing that was ever between them was friendship… It’s like he thinks she still is a part of him. I know she doesn’t think that way, but he does. I know it.

Me: Did you ever tell Laney that his calls bothered you?

Mads: I can’t forbid her from talking to him. And why should I? I trust her. I don’t trust him, but I trust my wife.

Me: There’s a part of you though that is envious of Niklas’s wealth…

Mads: Yeah, of course I am. He could give things to Laney that I couldn’t…I’ll probably never be that well-off. Laney never complains, but I know there are times when she misses what she had. She never had to think about how much something cost, she never had to question if there was enough money to go on holiday. And then she moved here to be with me and that privilege of never having to worry… it disappeared. Those first few years, we sometimes had to scramble to make ends meet with our salaries. I’d stopped working at the clinic, so there was no more extra money coming in unless I managed to get a few evening classes in woodworking from the local design school and community college. And then when Liv came…I pretty much stopped working so I could be at the hospital all the time… I still remember how we had to dig into our savings to pay bills. And Laney’s had just a broken background as me… I knew she needed that security and it was disappearing because we didn’t have enough money…

Me: What about your family? How did it feel–having that family you wanted?

Mads: Everything that’s good in my life is because of them. Before I met Laney, I never pictured myself as the guy who couldn’t wait to go home to be with his wife. I’d stopped believing that I would ever meet someone else I’d want to be married to…and then she came along…I love her… I can’t even imagine my life without her. I don’t want to. And my daughters–do you know how brilliant it feels to be their dad? I come home to them and it feels like whatever was missing–they fill that hole as soon as I see them. Or if I just think about them…Liv is like my little shadow–she follows me everywhere and she’s always full of questions. And Freya…she is my littlest angel and she’s growing up so quickly… Fanden, I miss my girls.

Me: Is this the end of you and Laney?

Mads: No, it can’t be. When you love each other as much we do…it can’t just disappear like that. I want to grow old with her. I’m not giving up on my marriage.

Me: Anton and the gang are worried that if you don’t act soon, Laney may ask you for a divorce.

Mads: I don’t want a divorce. I want my wife. I want my family…that’s all I want–Laney and my girls.


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Maybe Forever Teaser #4

Maybe Forever…a snippet…

I wasn’t sure how long I sat on the sofa, waiting…my face stripped of all the makeup, my dress draped across a chair in the bedroom. I would never wear it again. Now it felt jinxed. I’d changed into a pair of shorts and a tank top. My stomach grumbled, reminding me that I’d not had dinner. I should have been hungry…but the roiling sensation in my belly didn’t make me want to eat. It was too hot. My skin felt clammy, sticky. I hadn’t smoked in over a year but now I wished I could have a cigarette. I longed for the illicit pull of the tobacco. I longed to forget.

How could he forget? How could I be so easy to forget? He used to remember everything. Every little detail of my life, memorizing it like it held some hidden meaning. He used to tell me he wanted to know everything about me. He’d remember things I’d forgotten. Now it felt like he’d forgotten all the important bits. Maybe he didn’t want to remember.

Cover of Maybe Forever

The anticipated sequel to MAYBE BABY and MAYBE TONIGHT

Is the honeymoon over…?
Now married with two children, Laney and Mads are finding their life together isn’t as simple as it used to be. While Laney struggles with motherhood, Mads is so focused on chasing success that he loses sight of promises he’s made.

Better apart…?
When frustration gets the better of her, Laney takes the kids and goes to the US, hoping to find solace with her aunt Cecily, a former school teacher who now teaches yoga and meditation in Florida.

Will Laney and Mads find a way back to one another…or is it too late?

Launching on May 15 for Kindle, Nook, iBooks and Kobo.

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Coming June 1 in paperback.

Cover designed by Arijana Karcic of Cover It! Designs.

Image Credit: Sebastien Millon
Image Credit: Sebastien Millon

Oh my…it’s my birthday! So what am I going to do today–besides write? Well, I’m going to get a haircut, look into airline ticket prices for going to Matera in June, look into airline tickets for my next US trip (still not sure which month, but feeling a tad bit homesick) and then I’ll be in revising/editing mode for a while. I’m thinking of revamping the format of my newsletter too.

If this were a perfect world, I’d be writing this message from a beach on Mauritius or some other tropical paradise, but I’m still in Stockholm, where at least the sun is shining today even if the temperature is far from tropical. Maybe next year. 😉

Last night, while I was revising, I realised that I wanted to expand the penultimate chapter of Maybe Forever. I am going to experiment with it today. I have it ending while they are still in Florida–but perhaps I should take them back to where they started, back to Copenhagen. Will give it a shot and see how it feels. I also worked a bit on Maybe Tomorrow, so we’re making progress.

That’s it but let’s have a little fun with Game of Game of Thrones…just so we can get a glimpse of Nikolaj Coster-Waldau, my inspiration for Mads. 😉

Only one more week until NaNoWriMo and I am nearly done with my outline. I’m getting really anxious to start. I don’t remember feeling this excited last year–which is probably why I didn’t finish my 2013 NaNoWriMo effort.

This year, as I mentioned in my last post, I’ll be returning to Copenhagen and writing about Laney and Mads. We meet them four years after the end of the Maybe Baby and Maybe Tonight. I’ve made a vision board for the novel and it’s been a great help during this outlining stage.

I wasn’t going to share the plot just yet, but I changed my mind. Here’s the gist of the story I’ll be working on:

Add text-2Now married with two kids, Laney and Mads are finding life together is not as simple as it used to be. Laney is struggling with juggling a new baby and her four-year old daughter, Liv, and pressure to come back to work early from her maternity leave. She’s also worried that she and Mads are drifting apart. He’s so caught up in his furniture making business that he’s forgetting promises made to Laney and to Liv. And he’s missing signs that all is not well with Laney…

When the pressure gets too much for her, Laney takes the kids and goes to the US, hoping to find sanctuary with her aunt Cecily, a former school teacher who now teaches yoga and meditation to pensioners and at-risk teenagers in Florida.

Will Laney and Mads find a way back to one another…or is it too late?

Next Saturday I’ll be ready…and I will probably exhaust myself (and my fingers) the first few days, but I’ll keep writing. I’ll also have a temporary page here on the site where you’ll be able to read the very, very rough versions of the chapters I pen. I hope you’ll cheer me on. If you want to follow my NaNo progress, save this link.

By the way, the cover image is just inspiration. It’s not the final cover. I made it just to keep me motivated. When it’s time for publication, I’ll be contacting Arijana at Cover It! Designs for another amazing cover. 🙂

I wonder how many of you will be joining me for the NaNoWriMo challenge…drop a line and let me know! 🙂

 

Hiya, peeps! XIO AXELROD invited me to join this really cool blog hop in which I introduce you to one of the main characters from a newly released/WIP/soon-to-be-released novel. I should have posted this yesterday, but my brain is a sieve. 🙂 Well, I’ve already introduced you to Laney, Mads and Niklas from Maybe Baby. Now it’s time to get to know Eddy, who you might remember as Laney’s cousin who actually gave Laney the idea of going to a sperm bank in Copenhagen. Naughty girl. 😉

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I should tell you right now that no one calls me Edwina. Not if they want me to be nice to them. I hate being called that name. It’s an old woman’s name–and I am only thirty-five. I’m not ancient. I don’t smell like mothballs. I don’t put my teeth in a glass of water before I go to bed. Call me Eddy instead.

My mother named me after her favorite aunt. Apparently, there’s always been an Edwina in our family, and all of us have a reputation for being free-spirited, stubborn and going our own way. Which I kind of find hard to believe, because my great-aunt Edwina was super-religious. She didn’t seem very free-spirited to me. She was always telling me to tell the truth and let God love me or that I was the most sinful girl she’d ever met. I don’t know about that… I have my moments. Don’t we all?

Up until a few months ago I was living in Stockholm and having the time of my life. OK, I’m exaggerating. I wasn’t having the time of my life but I had a pretty good life there. I co-owned a successful boutique  with Andreas, my gorgeous (and slightly younger than me) boyfriend. We had the most amazing apartment in Kungsholmen and I really felt like we’d finally begun settling down. Well, then he came home one day and told me he didn’t love me anymore, that he wasn’t sure he’d ever loved me and he met someone else. Not exactly what you want to hear when you thought you were having a good run. I guess I should have expected it. He wasn’t very good at the whole “be faithful” thing. Neither of us were. Not really. I don’t think we trusted one another with our hearts. I don’t think I have trusted anyone with my heart, not since Colin. And he’s ancient history. We’re not going there. Not today. Let’s just say Colin and I had a habit of making each other feel wonderful and then making each other extremely miserable.

So Andreas and I…we broke up. I couldn’t sleep. I got this wacky idea that I wanted to move back home even though I didn’t really know where home was anymore. I’d lived in Sweden so long that I sometimes felt more Swedish than American. Sometimes I even dreamed in Swedish, but for some reason I decided I wanted to move back to my hometown of New York and reinvent myself. Or…no, not really reinvent myself, rediscover the girl I used to be.

And then my cousin Laney asked me to house-sit for her while she was on her honeymoon. I figured it was all part of my bridesmaid duties. All of my stuff was either in storage in Stockholm or on its way to a storage unit in New York. I didn’t have anywhere to live, so a month in Copenhagen sounded like a damned good thing. And then I met Henrik, the best man…and the groom’s cousin.

Fucking hell…he wasn’t supposed to be so charming or good-looking… and now we’re spending so much time together. And there’s this chemistry between us… I feel it whenever I’m around him.

I’m not supposed to want him.

I’m moving home. I am not staying in Europe.

I am tired of love in translation….right?

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You’ll be able to find out more about Eddy & Henrik (and Laney & Mads) in Maybe Tomorrow, which I hope to release later this year. No release date yet. 

And don’t forget to head over to these blogs to check out the next authors and characters in the blog hop:

MARA WHITE is the author of one of my favorite novels of 2013, Heights of Desire, and she loves all things romantic. She’s also a Bikram yoga enthusiast. Her latest novel, FEAR OF HEIGHTS, was launched last week. She lives in New York with her husband and two children.

TIA KELLY is the author of Taste for Love and The Affair, both of which I loved and I think you will too!  She’s a sports fan, a foodie and a consummate people watcher. Like me, she calls her hometown Philly! Her latest novel, READY For LOVE, is available now.

STACY-DEANNE is the author of Captivated, Worth the Risk and the just-released Empty. They are great reads! Add them to your TBR list! Stacy writers interracial romance and interracial romantic suspense. And like me, she loves Butter Pecan ice cream–but she has more willpower than me and resists its siren call. Her new novel, OUTSIDE WOMAN, will be published in October.